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My UU chalice and hymnal

Today, I attended a service for the Church of the Larger Fellowship. It is an online UU church. I love it. Every Sunday and Monday they have a streaming service. I like the one on Monday because it is in the morning before I have to get ready for work. It lasted from 8-845 this morning. There is a chat window so that you can talk during the service. I love this feature. You can actually ask questions without disturbing the service. The service today was about love. It was so moving, I had tears in my coffee. I felt so loved. Everyone in the chat room was so nice and welcoming. I plan to attend next Monday. I could not believe it when the service was over. It was time to extinguish my chalice and I didn’t want to. I was enjoying myself so much. I did not realize just how hungry I was for this kind of comfort and companionship. I usually have to be one way at work, another way around my relatives, and yet another way around SCA members. I can’t just be myself. It is great to find a place where I can be myself. I have been reading a book of my daughter’s called City of Bones by Cassandra Clare. There are supernatural creatures in it. They must hide what they are from society. There are places in the book – havens – where they can go and just be themselves. While there, they let their wings unfurl, howl at the moon, or just let their glamours down. No one is punished or shunned because of who they are. I feel that the CLF (and in a larger sense, all UU churches) are that haven for me. I can let my wings out and howl at the moon. The only reaction I will get is “Hey, can I howl with you?” I love it here!:)